Monday, October 26, 2009

Pictures!

Just thought I'd quickly share some pictures my sister took of us a couple of weeks ago. They're a little blurry, but still great!












We're Still Here!

I can't believe it is already the end of October. The summer flew by, and I don't even know what happened to September! We've not been up to a whole lot, just the same old stuff. The house is up on the market still, but you wouldn't know it. We have had zero interest but it seems like pretty much every house up on the market in this town has had about as much interest as us, so at least we know that it's not that our house sucks...lol.

My babies are turning into 2 little girls. Well, honestly, Addy is already there and Lexi is not far behind. Only a little more than 3 months until Addy turns 3 and Lexi turns 2. When you're pregnant everyone tells you to enjoy them while they're little because it flies by, and it is definitely true!

My little Addy. She is a firecracker, that one! She still amazes me with how clearly she speaks and the extent of her vocabulary. She's definitely impressive! We're working on potty training now and it is going ok. Some days she just has no desire to use the potty, and some days I have to bribe her to get off it. She will sit down and pee and be so excited that she wants to pee more, but she doesn't seem to understand that despite my complaining about them being peeing and pooping machines, that she is not actually a peeing machine. But I'd rather be bribing her to get off the potty than fighting to get her on it like we were a few weeks ago.

And in addition to working on that potty training milestone, she is completely 100% off the bottle, as of a couple of months now, and has been off the sucky for about a week. She was down to 3 suckies, all of which had holes in them. I had been saying for a day or 2 that the suckies were going to have to go bye-bye soon, and on this particular morning I looked at them and realized they had holes in them, 2 quite badly. I told her that she could keep the good 1 for 1 more day, but that I was throwing these 2 away. She was totally fine with it, I put them in the garbage and went to close it and she yelled "Wait, Mommy!!" She then came over, took the third one out of her mouth and threw it in. She said "Bye, suckies! I love you. See you later!" and blew them a kiss and that was the end of it. She asked for them that night at bedtime and the following night, but I reminded her that she is a big girl and we threw the suckies away and she was fine. On Saturday I wasn't home and Jamie's mom was watching the girls and I guess that Addy found a sucky and gave it right to her grandma. So I am very proud of how well she has done getting rid of those 2 comfort items.

Lexi has also given up the bottle. We had cut it back completely to only at bedtime and naptime. Then I cut it out at naptime too, and about a week ago (the same time Addy got rid of the sucky...I was feeling very daring and ambitious!) we got rid of it at bedtime too. And she has done so well!

Lexi is also starting to talk a little bit more but I am still concerned with her speech and hearing. We are still waiting to hear about our appointments to get her hearing checked and see a speech therapist. I am hoping we can get some answers and maybe even see an improvement.

Jamie's hours at work are now back to normal and that is a huge weight lifted from our shoulders. In a few months we will have everything caught up and paid off and be back on track, if all goes as planned. I am so excited for that. And once we have gotten to that point, we will be able to start saving up for a down payment on another house and maybe be able to make a move to somewhere that will fit us a little better than our current house does. Or maybe we will just put some money into this house, get the things done we want to and get the basement completely finished and stay a few more years.

Jamie and I have been talking about babies lately and if there is another one in our future. We haven't been trying, but we also have not been preventing the last few months, although my body and fertility were still recovering from being on the stupid depo provera shot. What a mistake that was. But I seem to be back to normal now (knock on wood) and we have been talking a little more seriously about it. I am feeling rather torn. I don't want to have a huge age gap between the girls and the next baby, and if we got pregnant now, Addy would be about 3.5 and Lexi 2.5 when the new baby was due. That seems like the perfect gap to me. But at the same time, I do feel as though I still very much have my hands full. And financially, maybe it would be better to wait until we are caught up before even trying. I had also wanted to lose a bit more weight before getting pregnant again, as I am only down 15 pounds. Another 10 would be nice. So at this point, I guess we're just going to leave it up to fate and see what happens.

I've had a really busy day today. I felt like baking, so I made a 4-layer pumpkin cake and I used the extra pumpkin I had left to make some frosted pumpkin cookies too. So lots of baking, plus my normal cleaning and chasing the kids. I am a tired mommy right about now. But it's 5pm and the sooner I make supper and get the kids fed, the sooner bedtime will be here, so I think that's my cue!

Friday, September 11, 2009

A Crazy Week

I'm back from my 2 month, Telus-induced histus. I've actually had internet back for a few weeks now, but it's still been screwy and not always working right (and by right I mean at all) so I just haven't made it back here. It was rather frustrating with it all because I made the new blog because I wanted to post more and keep it updated, and I was in the mindset to do that and then I couldn't. But I'm back now and giving it another shot.

This past week has been really crazy. Our anniversary was last Thursday. We didn't really do much for it. We just stayed home and put the kids to bed early so we could have a nice, romantic dinner (and as parents of 2 very young children, romance for us is being able to talk at the table over the noise level of 2 kids, without food being thrown at us or little moochers stealing off our plates...Yes, I know, our standards are quite low...lol). So after dinner, we watched a movie and called it a night.

I still cannot believe we have been married for 4 years. We have been through so much in those 4 years, some good, some not so good. But we made it through and we are happy and in love and ready for whatever we might face.

In July we took our house off the market. At that point Jamie was working full hours and we were doing ok financially (getting caught up) and we knew that with the hit our credit had taken from his 6-month lay off that we'd have a very tough time getting approved for another mortgage, so when the contract with the realtor expired, we didn't bother renewing it. In the 3-4 months it was on the market, we'd only had 3 requests for showings, and 2 cancelled, so it just didn't seem worth it. Plus, for what we wanted to get out of the deal at that time, we knew it probably wasn't going to happen anyways.

Fast forward to this week. Jamie's hours have been cut for about a month, so he is making...well not enough anyways. It's going to be nearly impossible for us to catch up and we seem to be getting further behind. So we came to the difficult decision to relist the house. We have a realtor coming on Tuesday, so I have been busy cleaning and doing laundry and getting the house ready for painting and fix-ups this weekend. My mom is taking the kids and Jamie and I are going to be working our asses off getting everything done. And then I'll have 2 full days (with any luck) to finish the cleaning and organizing and get the house in viewing condition.

We're fortunate (as much as can be) now that we are willing to take a little bit less for the house. We are thinking of listing it between $172,000 and $175,000 and go from there. So we shall see what happens. Wish us luck!

I also had an interview for a job I am less than thrilled about yesterday. I was basically given the job (I'll post about the ridiculous interview a little later) but am unsure about what to do. Especially after this morning's events.

Poor Jamie hit a deer on his way to work. I've only seen a picture via our blackberries of the damage, but it looks pretty Bad. When I hit a deer with my Torrent, the damage was at the very least equal to the damage on Jamie's car and it totalled over $10,000. I am hoping that I am over-estimating and that they don't end up writing the car off, because we owe quite a bit more on it than we would get paid out from insurance, I am sure. So I'm a little worried about that. And with only one vehicle for who knows how long, it'd be difficult for me to be working part-time, because if we're doing evening and weekend showings, I'd have the other car and Jamie would be stuck at home with no way to get himself, 2 kids and 3 dogs out of the house for the showings. So yet another thing to add to the list of things to stress me out.

Today I have to do an employability session with some hag from the service Canada place...I am not happy about and don't want to talk about it. Other than to say my children will be very difficult and they're coming with me seeing as I have no baby-sitter and she is being a real bitch about me having to come in. Maybe once I am less pissed off about it and there's a chance of me not going into a rage and getting myself worked up over it, I will post about it. Until then, I'm off to get ready for my day.

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Big Girl Bed...The First 24 hours!

Lexi had her first nap in the big girl bed yesterday and it went really well. She slept for about an hour and a half before I woke her up. And she was not happy about being woken!

Last night went not too bad. The girls took awhile to get to sleep, which isn't unusual. Really, I think the biggest struggle with Lexi in the toddler bed is going to be keeping Addy out of it. I realize now that it would have been a much better idea to have 2 of the same beds, because Addy really wants to be in the new bed. But Lexi also really wants to be in her own bed, so that caused some issues.

Before we went to bed, Jamie went in once, and I went in twice. They were also up in the night, which is very, very unusual for them. At that point, Addy had gotten back into Lexi's bed and Lexi was being pushed out of the bed. So I just moved a very sleepy and annoyed Lexi into Addy's bed and they slept in until about 9am. That's pretty early for them, but I'm sure that once the novelty of the bed wears off, they will go back to their regular sleep schedule. When I did go in this morning, I was greeted to a lovely mess. Someone had emptied out Lexi's dresser of most of her clothes. When I asked who did it, Addy replied "Addy did" but I think she may have had some help from her sister. And there was also a nice pile of throw-up on the carpet waiting for me to clean it up.

Lexi is now back in bed for her nap. She went down super easy and I think was just happy to get to be in her bed and not having to share it. She is really tickled with the bed and you can tell she is proud to be in a Big Girl Bed.

So all in all, things have gone much more smoothly than I had anticipated they would. Nothing I didn't expect, other than the aforementioned throw-up on the carpet.

Out Of Control

Lately I have been feeling like everything in my life is out of control. I'm fighting with my hubby alot over stupid little things (just to gain some control, I guess). I feel like my kids walk all over me and I'm just giving in because I'm so overwhelmed with everything else I'm dealing with. My house is a disaster. I am struggling to keep up with my housework...My laundry is totally out of hand. It will take me a long time to get caught up on that.

But probably the thing that is bugging me most, though, is my eating. I'm not being awful, and I am maintaining my weight, but it is a weight that I am not happy at. I weigh more now than I did when I got pregnant with Lexi (by about 23 pounds) and am only 5 pounds shy of where I was when I got pregnant with Addy. I am really stuggling to gain control and get and stay motivated. And honestly, I cannot even remember the last time I got any exercise intentionally (meaning other than chasing after kids, walking to the store, etc). I worked so hard after Addy was born and all that work has basically gone down the drain because I am pretty much where I started from. And now I don't have the breastfeeding to help me along the way.

Jamie and I really want to have another baby in the near future, but at this point, it's just not feasible. I feel like I need to get caught up around here and regain my control before I can add being pregnant and having another baby to the mix. And with my history of high blood pressure during my pregnancies, it is really important to me that I lose some weight before getting pregnant so that I can set myself up to have the healthiest pregnancy possible. Losing that 25-30 pounds after Addy was born made a huge difference in how I felt in my first pregnancy compared to my second.

So I have some goals, and not just in nutrition and fitness. I need to buckle down and get my work done. I am always distracted by the computer, and now my blackberry. I want to be able to get all my work done in a day, or at least enough that when I get into bed at the end of the day that I'm not stressing out and losing sleep over all the stuff I didn't get done.

I want to utilize my time better so that I can get that work done, but also spend some quality time with my girls. I realized last night how long it has been since I have had any really significant one-on-one time with each of them. And I feel like part of the reason they are acting out so much lately is because I am always so stressed and busy that they aren't getting the attention that they need.

I just feel like a chicken with its head cut off. I am running around and doing all this work, but I never seem to get one thing finished and nothing really gets accomplished. When someone walks into my house I don't want to be saying "Excuse the mess, it's hard to keep up with 2 toddlers," I want them to be saying "How do you have 2 toddlers and still keep up?" And I am definitely not there.

I am also sleeping really badly again. I'm up late because I'm stressing about everything, and then I sleep in too late and waste a bunch of time. It's lunchtime by the time the girls and I are dressed and ready for the day. My kids sleep in until 10-11am, I should be falling asleep at a decent hour, getting up early and getting 2-3 hours of work done before they wake up.

So if I am making an actual list of goals, I guess these are them:

1. Utilize my time better. Make it a priority to get my chores done and to keep caught up with it.

2. Catch up on my laundry and stay on top of it once I get there.

3. Make time each day to spend quality time with the girls, including one-on-one time as often as possible.

4. Get and stay motivated to eat healthy. Utilize spark people to track my food/water intake. Find the time to exercise even if all I do is put the kids in the stroller and go for a walk (aim for at least 3 times a week) and track that too. And drink lots of water!

5. Set and achieve small weight loss goals until I get to a point where I feel I am ready for pregnancy.

6. Create healthy sleep habits.

If anyone has any pointers to help me out, or just words of encouragement, I could use all the help I can get! LOL

Monday, July 6, 2009

A Fresh Start

I thought seeing as I don't really post much in my old blog, that I would start a new one and make an effort to post on it frequently. I really want to document the little things so that I have those memories and can look back at them and remember all the things my kids did.

Things around here have been really busy now that it is summer. There just seems to always be so much to get done and we're always on the go. And the girls seem to get busier and more mischievious every day.

This past weekend we went camping at Sir Winston Churchill Provincial Park up at Lac La Biche. It's really nice up there. Nice campground and a great beach, a combination that seems next to impossible to find around here. My only complaint was that the one outhouse closest to out campsite smelled awful. Worse than normal for an outhouse, and I'm one of those people who would rather squat behind the outhouse than actually use it, so I wasn't too impressed with the situation.

My mom and Charlie and Nicole (Charlie's girlfriend) joined us. Charlie pulled his boat with his new-to-him truck. He ended up having both the truck and the boat out of commission so him and Jamie spent most of Saturday getting them fixed and then we left early Sunday so it was kind of a bust. But we still had a good time.

We have another camping trip planned for the August long weekend at the same place. It's going to be a bit of a family reunion by the sounds of it because we have alot of family members coming. But it should be a good time.

And now, speaking of those memories I want to document and remember...

This morning the girls and I slept in pretty late because we were tired from the weekend. When I got up, as I walked past Addy and Lexi's bedroom I hear Addy say "Lexi Lou, get back in bed!" So I knew something was up right away because Lexi's bed is a crib and she shouldn't be able to get out of it.

I let the dogs out and go back to their room. I slowly open the door and hit who I thought was Addy on the bum with it. So I stick my head in and see Addy in the crib. Now I am really confused because not only should Lexi not be able to get out of the crib, Addy should not be able to get into it.

Lexi moves out of the way and I open the door.

I notice 2 things at once. First, one of the crib slats is missing from one end of the crib. Second, Addy is holding onto this slat. So it makes sense. That particular slat was always a little wobbly in its spot, so I assume that Lexi must have pulled on it until it came out. I assume this because it is in the crib, and even a 2-year-old would probably find it tricky to climb in the opening while holding this long peice of wood, so it would have had to have been Lexi yanking on it and pulling it into the crib when it came loose.

So, my afternoon consisted of me trying to assemble the Disney princess toddler bed I bought Lexi back around February. It was a major pain in the ass. It would have been difficult under normal circumstances, but because we slept in, I was doing this right after lunch...Also known as Nap Time in our house. So I had 2 very whiney, crabby kids hanging off of me and the bed pieces while I was trying to build this stupid bed, obviously designed by someone who takes great joy in making other people miserable.

I finally get the bed together and am excited about the prospect of getting the girls down for a nap (and if I'm being honest, I was also comtemplating downing the half a bottle of tequila in my pantry due to my super high stress level ). I go and make the girls their bottles and tell them to get into bed, only to discover that Addy thinks that the new pink princess bed should belong to her. Which, theoretically would be okay, but Lexi is not willing to give it up.

I figured there wouldn't be much harm in letting them sleep together, but after a few minutes of fighting, it becomes clear to me that I need to move one of them. I went in and moved Lexi onto Addy's bed, but then Addy informs me that she "Pooped in ma pulled-up!" She doesn't usually nap anyways, so I figured I would just take her out and let Lexi have a little sleep (it was already after 3:00pm by this point).

After about a half an hour I decide to check in on her and see if she is actually sleeping or just into something. I peek in the door and this is what I see...

She climbed out of Addy's bed and went and got into her new bed and fell asleep. She's just so friggin' cute I want to squeeze her!

And, as we speak, Addy is in the pantry feeding the dogs crackers, so I guess that's my cue...